Tee,
I know the pain of that struggle, my Dad suffered with bone cancer for 5 years. And, I too then experienced the emotional roller coater that happens when it is finally over... You are so relieved that their pain and suffering are ended, but also so very, very sad that they are gone... But, what I have learned is that, although he is no longer physically with me, he is there by me every day in my thoughts and memories. I pray that the pain of your loss will get pushed away as soon as possible by the wonderful memories you have to treasure for the rest of your life. It is like the love stays and the hurt fades away. God Bless. You are in my thoughts and prayers. And, I know that you know she is in far better place than we are...